I don't know why...

31 March 2002

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There are many things that I can fully admit to not knowing, but I have been listing a few things in my head lately, as the days pass me by. Here are a few.

I don’t know why…
   I can’t stop eating egg noodles. Can these things actually be addictive? I find myself craving them day after day. When the (very large, family-size) bag is used up, I tell myself, “I am not going to buy another bag. No more of these for me!” The next day, I go to the store and buy a new (very large, family-size) bag, work it down, and repeat the cycle. I boil them, add just a bit of salt. That’s it. How can this possibly be a good thing? Don’t answer that.

I don’t know why..
   The flavor of chocolate seems to be getting worse and worse. I’ve noticed in the last few years that chocolate, generally speaking, is really beginning to taste more and more like wax. In fact, it tastes like that fake chocolate stuff – carob, is that right? What is with that? I’ve never been much of a chocoholic, but I do enjoy the way it melts in my mouth, its flavor wrapped around my tongue; it’s such sweet titillation. However, now I just skip it, which is not a bad thing, because its flavor is just mediocre. I used to think it was the chocolate out here in California. It’s one of the things I noticed right off; the chocolate is drier. Now, I just think that it’s some kind of covert conspiracy by the chocolate manufacturers to save money and pull the proverbial wool over the consumer’s proverbial eyes. Or not. It’s just the same, and I don’t know why!

I don’t know why…
   Many drivers feel the need to drive in the left lane of traffic. Isn’t that the lane for passing? I believe so. There will be little to no traffic in the right lane, and people will still drive in the left lane. I have even seen where people are in the right lane and *move* over into the left lane for no apparent reason. They are not passing anyone. They are not turning left anywhere up ahead. They just move over. How bizarre is that? I find myself getting fairly perturbed about things like that. Then I shake myself out of it. Why let something like that bother me? I am in control of my own reactions, and it is up to me to remain a calm, observant, and good driver. But it still really annoys me!

I don’t know why…
   I can’t manage to keep my house in order. I clean it every now and again. Why can’t I just *keep it clean* and not have to worry so much about it? It’s the same in my classroom. I make my kids clean their desks, and yet my own is filled with orderly and not-so-orderly piles. I just don’t understand what it is within myself that keeps me from taking care of things as they come along. It’s not a big priority in my life, though, and I don’t see it changing anytime soon. Heheh.

I don’t know why…
   Lucky, my sweet and lovable pooch, has so much gas. Is it the food that I give him? Is he just susceptible to gaseous airs? I do have to admit that although his little poots can be stinky, it’s incredibly endearing the way his little floppy-eared head swings around to sniff at his hinder, as if saying, Where the heck did that come from, and what is it? Call me weird, but it’s kind of cute at the same time it’s… stinky! ;-)

I don’t know why…
   Shows need to have so many repeats within the season. Don’t the network producers know that if one doesn’t see “their show” for weeks on end that she just might forget about it(after catching ‘other shows’ during the repeats of their faves.) When my show isn’t on or is a repeat, I may or may not turn the channel and watch something that I never watched before because it was on at the same time as “my show.” Sitcom infidelity. I should be ashamed. The ones for which this is a true issue are the new shows. For example, the show “24” has been off for so many weeks, I nearly forgot about it. That’s not the kind of thing that producers probably want! I would love to know why all the lulls in programming. It drives me batty!

I don’t know why…
   I have this incessant need to keep all of those little tools that come with the things that I buy for the house – bookshelves, bookcases, computer desk, etc. – all those little allen tools and whatnot. I have a drawer full of all the extras that come with them – nails, screws, plastic doo-hickies. Some of the little miscellaneous items have been with me for years. If I haven’t used them by now, I don’t think that I will. I can’t get rid of them, though. It’s just that “what if” all over again. I was just looking in that drawer and found some plastic brackets to the mini-blinds that I put up (after Lucky ripped one set down). Do I think that I am going to have to use them? I mean, if the blinds come down again, I will most likely have to buy a new set anyway, right?

I don’t know why…
   I always order stuff from catalogues and then never use it. Case in point – I have this nice screen thingie that I ordered from Harriet-Carter. It hangs in front of any door that you’d like and acts as a portable kind of screen door. It’s very cool; that’s why I bought it. However, when am I actually going to install it? (Addendum: Because I actually pondered this, I installed it, and it’s great! What a great thing this is for those of us who rent houses – or apartments. I can take it with me when I move out of the house. Or I can have it for as long as my wonderful landlords let me stay here at such a great rent!)

I don’t know why…
   Instead of buying some nice living room and bedroom furniture, I insist upon buying these little screw-together, easy-to-assemble end tables to put all over my house. I would love to just invest in some nice, sturdy kind of furniture – something that I could really be proud of owning. Perhaps I will do that some day. It would be a nice addition to the dresser for which I paid a few hundred dollars; it’s made of beautifully knotted wood, varnished with a deep color. Now that is what I call furniture!

I don’t know why…
   When I have days off, I find myself *trying* to watch soap operas that I used to watch in my younger days. It’s not like anything ever changes. I mean, are Sammi and Austin actually still involved? The only thing that changes there is the way that they are involved – they hate each other, they love each other, they are parents of a son, she tricked him, she tricked him again, yada yada yada. No wonder I only find myself *trying* to watch and not really watching! Kudos to those who can sit through more than five minutes!

I don’t know why…
   I can’t throw boxes away. Every time I get something delivered or I buy something, I take it out of the box and put the box in my spare bedroom. Therefore, as one can imagine, that room is filled with boxes strewn about the lovely ceramic-tiled floor. I actually tossed some of them (in the recycling of course!) recently, and it made such a difference! Small boxes, big boxes, square boxes, round boxes. It’s simply amazing. I am such a pack rat! While I’m on that subject…

I don’t know why…
   I keep the things that I do. I have boxes of college folders that I will most likely never use. Within the folders, one would find units created during college – art, music, language arts, math, etc. Way back when I put those together (way back when? It was five years ago or so!), I *knew* I would use them again, hence the boxes filled with files. I will be truthful. I am now in my fourth year of teaching, and not once have I used anything in those files. But I can’t bring myself to throwing away any of that stuff. I mean, what if I do throw it away, and then I need it??? Whatever would I do? Then there are all the instruction manuals that come with appliances. Hello, after a few years, do I really think that I’ll need them? It’s that fear of the unknowing – what if something goes wrong with my stereo and I need to figure out how to troubleshoot. (Ironically, something’s wrong with my stereo, and there’s nothing in the manual on how to fix it. ;-))

I don’t know why…
   Mannequins in department stores have to have such large, protruding nipples! I mean, really! Does a plastic figurine representing a woman’s body really need to have nipples at all? I know that it doesn’t make me run out and purchase something all that more quickly! “Honey! You’ll never guess what I bought. I saw this blouse on a mannequin, and the way the material draped so elegantly over her nipples just spoke to me. I just had to have it.” Good grief! Those things could sometimes poke an eye out if you’re not watching where you are going. Besides, the only one that I know who has that much nippleage going on is Jennifer Aniston while playing Rachel on Friends.

Well, it’s a short list, and I’m sure that I will add to it at a later time, but for now, this will have to do. I feel much better now that I have gotten this off of my chest!

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